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My last entry didn't really adequately express how I was feeling, but oh well. I really do love him, but we are still best friends and stuff. I appreciate his friendship. Anyway, today was no talking to guys day. It was a game. Thursday is no guys talking to girls. We start off the day with 4 tags and lose a tag everytime we talk to a guy. Obviously, guys do everything they can to try to get them to talk to you. I whipped out my mace today in front of the one guy. I had a two hour class with him and he decided he was going to kick my chair the whole time. We were allowed to have non-verbal conversation so on a piece of paper I wrote I'm not afraid to use it. That was a fun class period *tongue sticking out* I was actually pretty calm, but the mace was a good threat. Then I had an annoying boy sit next to me in chapel. He insulted me the whole time. It was quite irritating. I had never talked to him before. It made me never want to talk to him. I lost one tag all day and it was cuz I hit a guy with my umbrella accidentally and then said sorry. Oh well such is life. The game ends at 5 and since that's in 8 min and I'll be in my room til then I'm good to go. I got to drive a car Saturday and today. That was exciting cuz I don't get to drive much at all here. Anyway, that's all for today. Peace

~Neller

I usually don't express stuff like this here, but whatever.

I so badly wish that I didn't love him like I do (if you don't know who i'm talking about you don't know me very well.
So i decided back like 2 months ago that we should just be friends and draw closer to God. I want to be completely dependent on God and I felt like I was for a while. But I love him like I've never loved anyone before. I want to just get over him. Thinking about my feelings for him makes me want to cry. I hate crying! I will not. I refuse. Crying is for wimps. Anyway, I love him. I want the best for him, even if it's not me. I want him to live to reach his potential. I don't want him to live a life that won't account for anything. I hope that he reaches the world for Christ. Words can't describe my feelings because I don't know how to write eloquently. Memories of when we were together flood my mind. So many good memories..i wish things were how they used to be when we first started liking each other. Oh well. Life goes on.

Hey!!
So ya college life has gotten better. I'm getting used to all my classes and I'm diligently doing my work for the most part. I really like the extreme Biblical focus here. It's like being at camp w/ speakers for a year lol. God is teaching me to love others selflessly. Also, I'm learning that the strength I have is because of Him. K that's all for now. Peace out. God bless.
~Danielle

Hey!!
College has started. There is lots to do. I'm taking 17 credits this semester (including a 5 credit biology course) Great fun! I'm still in my missing home stage especially when things go wrong like this morning. I got an email saying I couldn't be in choir. It's stupid like they cut I think over 20 girls. Neway God is in control. He knows what He's doing and really I was doing well until I got that email. This too shall pass. Not like many ppl check this cuz no one knows I have a xanga but plz leave msgs. K peace out
God bless,
Danielle

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I am part of the "Fellowship of the Unashamed." The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I now live by presence, lean by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power. My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.